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[croibhristeoir]

Why am I...here...?

[Lancer looked pale and shaky, trembling as he tried to form proper words.]

I...died. Didn't I? I-- [He pressed a trembling hand to his heart, as though expecting to find a gaping wound.] He...they killed me. They killed me and yet I still breathe, how?

[Crimson tears left golden eyes as he spoke, Lancer clearly having difficulty remembering he'd left his canon timeline quite a long time ago.]

Wh-where am I?

Comments

video;

[jailbirds]

Diarmuid? [ he "died", huh... maybe - ] Are you talking about that zombie thing? Issei said you were fine...

video;

[croibhristeoir]

I'm not--...who? I am not certain I know what is going on.

video;

[chuanifrinn]

[He's not sure how much crazy he can handle, and he's rarely the calm one...but they do say cooler heads prevail.]

There really is something skeevy going on...hey...uh...try to relax, though I guess it's not easy...and tell me what you remember.

[Action]

[unknownrival]

[Not even bothering with replying, just coming straight to where Diarmuid is in the temple.]

It's okay. You're going to be all right, no one has killed you...

[Action]

[croibhristeoir]

They did--I did. I killed myself on his order, I did, so why am I here...?

video;

[croibhristeoir]

I-...I am the Servsnt of Kayneth Archibald El-Melloi. I was f-fighting Saber and there was...he ordered me to die, he ordered me to kill myself, why am I here?

[Action]

[unknownrival]

You didn't. T-timelines are mixing - this is where you live.

video;

[chuanifrinn]

It's a pleasure, Servant of Kayneth Archibald El-Melloi...I'm Cu Chulainn [he's playing this as carefully as possible] and...and you're here because there are people who love you.

video;

[croibhristeoir]

L...Lancer. My name is Lancer--i-it's Diarmuid, I mean.

I don't understand. They-I should be dead this isn't even real, I'm dead and it's their fault, it's their fault and I hate them all--

[Action]

[croibhristeoir]

You're wrong. I'm not-...I don't live anywhere.

[And he's crying blood all over your floor.]

video;

[chuanifrinn]

A brother to my own soul...we're the same, you and I...I understand exactly how you feel...

...You're alive and warm and safe now...though I can't speak for what is real since that's relative...but we're talking now, I could touch you if I wanted to...

[Action]

[unknownrival]

A rün... [Issei pulls out a handkerchief (not a white one) and reaches to wipe away some of the blood.]

[Action]

[croibhristeoir]

Don't touch me--!

[Diarmuid recoiled almost immediately, snarling like the vengeful spirit he'd turned himself into.]

video;

[croibhristeoir]

Why? I shouldn't--I should just disappear. That's what dead Servants do, isn't it?

[Action]

[unknownrival]

[Issei cringes and takes a step back. He... he's afraid of his Diarmuid like this, and he hates that he's afraid of someone who he should be able to stand by when he's in need.]

I don't want to hurt you. I just want to help.

video;

[chuanifrinn]

Yeah, that's what Servants normally do, it's what I should have done...but...you were chosen by this nexus and the people here love you...you're here because of that...that's why. You were rescued, saved from death.

[Action]

[croibhristeoir]

Just...just leave me alone. I don't want any help.

video;

[croibhristeoir]

...who would want to save a worthless Servant?

[Action]

[unknownrival]

I can't do that...

[Action]

[croibhristeoir]

I don't need your help, just let me die already!

[Action]

[unknownrival]

No!

[Saying 'you'll feel better in the morning' feels trite.]

[Action]

[croibhristeoir]

Why not?! Isn't it what I deserve, isn't it what's right for a Servant so easily discarded?!

[Action]

[unknownrival]

Just because it's what you got doesn't make it what you deserve!

video;

[chuanifrinn]

Is that how they made you feel?

I would...I would, because I don't look at you and see what your worth is to me. You can't measure that. You're not just a tool.

video;

[croibhristeoir]

Of course I am. I'm his puppet--that's all I ever was. Just a stupid, worthless, puppet.