Even psychos have issues...

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

All right you miserable lot, I've got a bone to pick with you because I know if I ask the normal people I spend time with, I'll probably end up committing explosive suicide in order to take them with me and torment them for eternity just to make myself happy.

But I digress.

I met this chap a while back... looks a lot like myself. Mentioned something about him and a bunch of other Black Mages being... Constructs. And, bein' a Black Mage myself, it's made me question this existence of mine. I mean... I thought I knew what gave me the endless powers of the cosmos's and it generally resulted from be being a violent misanthrope with an unquenchable thirst for power and destruction. But what if perhaps that's not the truth and just some little story implanted into my head to prevent me from realizing the truth. That in the long run I'm nothing but a puppet for some... god knows what.

So let's get your miserable ideas on this topic. Hit me with what you got.

Comments

[the-air-corsair.livejournal.com]

Hm...We reap what we sow?

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

What the hell's farming and sewing got to do with anything?

[purrifying-wind.livejournal.com]

Continue living your life as you know it. It seems to me the truth would make itself known eventually, if what you live is false.

[the-air-corsair.livejournal.com]

It means that the what we do comes back on us in numerous ways, many of the bad.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

So... instead of wondering whether I'm some puppet, keep on living like I was just that friendly neighborhood psycho that I've been for years? Hmmm... I suppose there's some logic to that.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

I never tried to create beings to go out and cause hell, I did it my damned self! So I'm a little confused on my existence, but damn it, I'm still highly capable of ending yours.

Now, either stop being an asinine prick and say something useful or fuggoff ya fuggin fugger... *grumbles*

[the-air-corsair.livejournal.com]

Consider I'm in my world and you're in your own, your threats aren't very useful. Besides which, we're traveling in the sky at several hundred knots. If you can pinpoint that with a some sort of portal, feel free to try. I'll cut you down before you can raise a wand or utter one incantation.

Please don't threaten my girls, sir.

The useful thing would be to simply stop thinking about it. What does it matter where we come from? What matters is who we are! If we choose to do good, we create a better future for ourselves and everyone, so our past doesn't matter. If we, or in this case you, choose to be rather rude and ill-tempered, we create nothing of use, and so are left only with our own anger and confusion.

[purrifying-wind.livejournal.com]

Pretty much. See, my point is this: What if you're not some puppet? Then you'd just be chasing baseless thoughts. And even if you are... Sometimes, that doesn't change a thing.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

Hmph. I could come over there no problem. I've got conenctions.

And I never threatened your girls, hell I don't even know who the hell youre talking about.

And if you had just said that nicely in the first place (and yes, I'm aware of the hypocrisy, but cut m e some slack, I'm having a freak out session here) I wouldn't have been so hostile.

Now unless you've got something else that's helpful and not just you being a dick to me, go away and let me brood in peace.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

Hmm. Good point. I mean, I've come this far, I've done so much. Why let the possible truth stop me now? I could always just "take care" of my controller if I do happen to be a puppet, and if I'm not, hey, no use cryin' over somethin' that ain't true!

[the-air-corsair.livejournal.com]

You bragged about your capacity to end my existence and I'm always close by my girls. How is that not a threat?

[purrifying-wind.livejournal.com]

There, you seem to be getting it well enough.

[secondvirgo.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes, you're a puppet alright.

[toxiccrown.livejournal.com]

Some people might be created with a particular purpose in mind, but that shouldn't stop you from living life however you want to. That's what my colleagues and I do.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

Fuck. You. Orangeface.

[secondvirgo.livejournal.com]

Hey, you wanted ideas!

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

I'm hearing that a bit, and I'm liking the idea... it's not like it's not what I haven't been doing for a while, anyway.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

They've got legs. They can run. You're my target. If they get caught in the cross blast, their loss.

Now I said unless you've got something useful to add, bug off.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

Yeah... I'll have to think that over. Thanks a lot, pal.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

I wanted good ideas, not insensitive attempts to drive me further into madness. I heard that tone of voice allllll the way over here.

[the-air-corsair.livejournal.com]

Your loss, my friend. I'd split you open like a log.

...I just gave you useful advice before, idiot!

[toxiccrown.livejournal.com]

Exactly. And for all you know you're probably over thinking things for nothing.

[createdpower.livejournal.com]

Who was it that you spoke to?

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

Uh... I think he said his name was Vivi. Little Black Mage kid.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

I caught that, and I appreciate it. But returning threats is not helping. So piss off.

If you want, I'll even apologize. There, happy? Now unless you've got something more like your previous helpful advice, please leave me alone, I'm going insane here.