Even psychos have issues...

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

All right you miserable lot, I've got a bone to pick with you because I know if I ask the normal people I spend time with, I'll probably end up committing explosive suicide in order to take them with me and torment them for eternity just to make myself happy.

But I digress.

I met this chap a while back... looks a lot like myself. Mentioned something about him and a bunch of other Black Mages being... Constructs. And, bein' a Black Mage myself, it's made me question this existence of mine. I mean... I thought I knew what gave me the endless powers of the cosmos's and it generally resulted from be being a violent misanthrope with an unquenchable thirst for power and destruction. But what if perhaps that's not the truth and just some little story implanted into my head to prevent me from realizing the truth. That in the long run I'm nothing but a puppet for some... god knows what.

So let's get your miserable ideas on this topic. Hit me with what you got.

Comments

[the-air-corsair.livejournal.com]

Hm...We reap what we sow?

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

What the hell's farming and sewing got to do with anything?

[the-air-corsair.livejournal.com]

It means that the what we do comes back on us in numerous ways, many of the bad.

[purrifying-wind.livejournal.com]

Continue living your life as you know it. It seems to me the truth would make itself known eventually, if what you live is false.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

So... instead of wondering whether I'm some puppet, keep on living like I was just that friendly neighborhood psycho that I've been for years? Hmmm... I suppose there's some logic to that.

[purrifying-wind.livejournal.com]

Pretty much. See, my point is this: What if you're not some puppet? Then you'd just be chasing baseless thoughts. And even if you are... Sometimes, that doesn't change a thing.

[secondvirgo.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes, you're a puppet alright.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

Fuck. You. Orangeface.

[secondvirgo.livejournal.com]

Hey, you wanted ideas!

[toxiccrown.livejournal.com]

Some people might be created with a particular purpose in mind, but that shouldn't stop you from living life however you want to. That's what my colleagues and I do.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

I'm hearing that a bit, and I'm liking the idea... it's not like it's not what I haven't been doing for a while, anyway.

[toxiccrown.livejournal.com]

Exactly. And for all you know you're probably over thinking things for nothing.

[createdpower.livejournal.com]

Who was it that you spoke to?

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

Uh... I think he said his name was Vivi. Little Black Mage kid.

[createdpower.livejournal.com]

Did he say for what purpose the Constructs were being made?

[redprototype.livejournal.com]

Hey, I dunno about you, but there's no one out there controlling my actions.

[oceanicbutterfly]

...For some reason, seeing you say that gives me an odd feeling.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

How do you mean?

[vonwhippingberg.livejournal.com]

Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. No doubt these "construct" Black Mages were based upon a more powerful individual. Yourself, I'd wager.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

Well, if you put it that way... heh heh...

Well, there's my ego goin' all inflated now, heh heh heh... I rock...

[prototype-mage.livejournal.com]

E-Even if you were created, l-like me, that doesn't mean you're a puppet! The man that... that did that, he's dead now, and... You're you, y-you exist.

I... know it's hard, but... try not to worry about things like that...

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

I don't know how you do it, kid. It's drivin' me crazy and yet you manage to pull it all together...

Its hard NOT to worry about it.

[prototype-mage.livejournal.com]

It took me a long time... b-but, my friends helped me, and... I learned that I do exist.

No matter what I was created for... I'm me.

[handywithscythe.livejournal.com]

Life all depends.

[hadoken-mage.livejournal.com]

...eh?