Oh gawd, what have I done?

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

To anyone I may have yelled at or have hurt in any way:

I AM SO VERY SORRY!!!

Apparently, I said some really horrible things, and made a complete and total ass out of myself. I read what I had posted previously in the comm, and Eva explained to me what happened last night. I don't really want to get into details right now, but all I can say is that I wasn't myself yesterday, and I apologize for anything bad I might have done during that time. I'm willing to pay for any damages I might have inflicted on persons or property, as the case may be.

I feel really nauseous right now, and my head hurts really badly. If I don't show up much, it's because I'm probably sleeping off the effects of some severe caffeine withdrawl.

Comments

[mollyforeva.livejournal.com]

...you do realize that if Dad sees this he'll make you buy us a new fridge, right?

And I thought you were resting now?

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

I plan on fixing that before he gets home. I'd rather he not find out what happened last night. Especially the part where I apparently tried to molest you.

I am resting. I'm still in bed with my laptop. I'm feeling a lot better, but my head still kinda hurts.

[mollyforeva.livejournal.com]

Good... just don't do that before you're really up to it, okay? He's NEVER finding out about that if I can help it!


...guilt-tripping yourself by apologizing to everybody isn't restful. I'm glad you're feeling better, though. ♥

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

Yeah, gimme a day or two, and I should be able to walk around without feeling like I'm going to fall on my ass. Thank you, sooooo much!

Yeah, but I feel I owe it to a lot of people (especially Aikka and Rick) for saying such horrible things. I didn't mean any of it! At least, I don't think so... Thanks for being there for me, partner. &hearts

[mollyforeva.livejournal.com]

That's good, really good. I don't want him to kill you!

Yeah... you should apologize, but if you're going to be feeling overly guilty about things you couldn't control, that's not good. You're you, you didn't. I thought we went over this? You're welcome... I know you'd do the same for me, too. ♥

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

I don't think he can kill me, but I'm sure he can still castrate me...

I'll try not to feel so guilty about it, but its hard. I feel like being the Avatar means I shouldn't be able to make mistakes like this. Only humans make mistakes, and I'm not really human anymore, you know?

[mollyforeva.livejournal.com]

DO NOT WANT.


Jordan... don't talk like that. Human or not human, you're you. Don't try to be perfect, you'll only hurt yourself.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

DO NOT WANT, EITHER!!

I ... I'm sorry. I'll try. I know that tearing myself up over this won't do anyone any good, least of all myself. I'll sleep on it and see how I feel in the morning.

And, thanks for coming over to snuggle with me. ^__^

[maraich]

You were just being weird.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

No, it was more like I was being possessed or something. I'm still not exactly sure what happened to me, but I certainly learned my lesson: never eat strange candy that's been left lying around.

[luvmyshades.livejournal.com]

Apologies accepted, pal. I'll even let you to hug me if it makes you feel any better.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

Really? You mean that? *tackle glomps* I love you man, I really do!

[luvmyshades.livejournal.com]

*three hours later*

Okay, that's enough. Call me again in a month or so and we'll try it again. Make it more 'manly' next time.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

I know you're not the touchy-feely kinda guy, but ... thanks for putting up with me. I'll be returning to Oban tomorrow morning, so you won't have to worry about any more tackle glomping until I come back!

[arcadian-actor.livejournal.com]

Well, you did scared me, but now you seem back to normal...

Appology accepted!

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

Yeah, sorry for freaking out on you like that (twice, even!). I don't know what came over me. I felt like I was a completely different person during that time.

Thank you.

[arcadian-actor.livejournal.com]

Heh, I know what you mean. Sometimes I don't act like myself when I'm really, really tired and I'm still up.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

No, no. This was nothing like that. I think that espresso was laced with "essence of evil" or something. There were freakin' voices in my head telling me that everyone was out to get me and stuff! This wasn't some crankiness due to insomnia: this was full-blown caffiene-induced schizophrenic paranoia, or something!

[arcadian-actor.livejournal.com]

Dude, I hear voices in my head all the time.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

Eh? Isn't that a bad thing? How can you say something like that with a straight-face?

[arcadian-actor.livejournal.com]

Because... I don't know. They don't tell me to do things or stuff like that... they're just... there. They just talk to each other and they often mention the Black Gigas. I dunno if I'm insane or not, but, yoou know, this is actually normal within my family. My father has voices in his head, Dolores has them too... I don't know. I think it's because we used to live in Esperanza.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

Oh ... when you put it like that ...

But this voice in my head was definitely not the good kind!

*filtered against Vyse*

[arcadian-actor.livejournal.com]

*nods*

...Actually, I've been having... nightmares.

Re: *filtered against Vyse*

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

What does living in Esperanza have to do with hearing voices?

Really?! Do you wanna talk about it?

Re: *filtered against Vyse*

[arcadian-actor.livejournal.com]

Esperanza is very close to the Dark Rift, where the Black Continent used to be. We don't know what happened to it, and why the Dark Rift is the bitchiest rift, but we THINK it minght be because of the Black Moonstones Vyse found in said rift.

...Yeah, I guess so. Where can I start?

Re: *filtered against Vyse*

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

Hmm ... so you're from Vyse's world. Arcadia, was it? That Dark Rift sounds like a pretty scary place.

Well, start from the beginning, I guess.

Re: *filtered against Vyse*

[arcadian-actor.livejournal.com]

Arcadia, yes. Floating islands are fun.

Well, I guess I can start with the fact that each nightmares always have these things- a Black Moon blowing up into pieces, dead flutterflies with their wings pointing at where Vyse lives now, crying invisible children, and let's not forget the hugeass monster coming out of the Silver Moon.

Re: *filtered against Vyse*

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

Indeed! I think I might have to visit your world sometime. Good thing I can fly. ^__^

So, you're worried that these dreams fortell something disaterous, and that your friend might end up dying because of some monster from the Silver Moon?

Re: *filtered against Vyse*

[arcadian-actor.livejournal.com]

Oh, you SHOULD. And maybe we'll catch Vyse there.

Yes. That, and the fact I always end up having my voice box ripped out. ...As if something is silencing me.

Re: *filtered against Vyse*

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

I'll definitely come to visit, after we're done with that party-thing Eva's hosting on Earth.

You should definitely tell your friend about them. I've learned from experience that's it's not good to ignore dreams like that. They often do mean something.

[assistant-god.livejournal.com]

Yeah. That was scanny.

Hope you're feeling better soon.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

Tell me about it. You've always been so nice to Eva, so that makes me feel bad for yelling at you. Sorry.

Yeah, I'm feeling much better now that I'm back on Oban.

[bluebeetlerider.livejournal.com]

You accused me of doing inappropriate things with Eva; told me if I came anywhere near you or Eva you would rip out my heart, roast it, and eat it; told me to hit my head hard enough to knock myself out; and that you would eat my liver raw.

Despite all that, I shall forgive you. I would hope know you would never really do that and mean it and that your crazy condition was temporary. I am just relieved you are, sort of, yourself again. If you ever need anything (except for espresso, coffee, or anything else with caffeine) just ask me. For now, I am searching for that bird that was leaving you those 'presents'. Oh! I just saw it! It is sitting in a tree nearby! I shall be back soon.

[glowy-brows.livejournal.com]

I know. I read all that stuff that I wrote, and it sounds like another person wrote those things and not me. Hell, I felt like I was a completely different person while under the influence of that espresso laced with "essence of evil". But that's still no excuse for what I did, and I'm sorry.

And believe me, I plan on switching to decaff (probably)! Also, I'll be on the look out for stalker bird from now on. There's something definitely evil about that bird: I can feel it. Just be careful, Aikka. That bird is tied to Canaletto somehow, and it could be dangerous.

[bluebeetlerider.livejournal.com]

Everything is back to normal now and I forgive you. You were not yourself then.

I shall be careful. I did not manage to shoot the bird with my arrow. I had just lined up my aim when it flew away. I felt like it sensed me preparing to shoot it, but it had its back to me. I do not like the feeling I got when I saw that bird. I got the same feeling from it that I did after I found that demon, Canaletto back in the Temple of the Heart. I am getting a strong vibe that this is an ill omen of more to come. Stay alert.... *yawn* I must as well, if I am to hunt down that bird.... I hope... that was the... *yawn* the last... we saw of it.... *zzzzzzzzz*