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[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

[Locked from anyone in Angel Investigations]

So there's awkward moments, and then there's... awkward moments.

Have any of you ever lived in the same city as an ex? Like not just an ex ex, but like a really... serious sort of ex, with the heartbreak and the horrible crushing sense of starcrossed-ed-ness, and the Hell dimensions and...

Ok, not necessarily the Hell dimensions part.



But how do you deal with it? How do you deal with going to the store and just running into them in the middle of the street? I mean you can't just pretend you don't see them and keep walking, and then when you don't, it quickly turns into awkward small talk and fake smiles and not knowing what to do with your hands, and looking for excuses to leave without ever really wanting to leave....


And then what if they do leave? All... abrupt... y.  And not like they were just uncomfortable too, because that would make sense, but like something was honestly off.  

I guess asking for a normal old Yuletide is packing the wish list a little too tight, huh?

Should've stuck with asking for a pony.

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[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

There is no dealing with it. Love like that boils your insides, and there's nothing to do but feel it.

Not sure I want to see a Hellpony, luv. Maybe you ought to stick to your first wish, even if it is a tall order.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

[Ew, another speech from Spike on love. NOT WHAT THE DOCTOR ORDERED. Oh so flatly:] Yeah, yeah, love is blood screaming inside you to do its thing, I remember the monologue.

... And why would it have to be a Hellpony? What's wrong with a non-demon pony?

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

[s-so oblivious to Buffy's linefais.] Oh, I already said that? Pretty brilliant speech if I do say so myself. Glad some of it stuck.

You're on a Hellmouth. How couldn't it be a Hellpony.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

Like a bad disco tune.

Hey, we have things that are not ... so... evil, too. There are puppies.

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

Ouch, Slayer. You really know how to cut up a bloke's heartstrings. [he tries to sound unaffected, but well... she does :c ]

Let's wish for puppies then. Even if those come back evil, I think they'll be easier to deal with than Hellponies.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

Usually I go with staking over sawing.

I don't know. Have you ever met a friendly Hellhound? ... Actually, don't answer that. You probably think they're cute.

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

Yeah, know that well enough.

Hellhounds? Guess they have a certain .. Forget it. They're real ugly buggers.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

Luckily, they're pretty easy to put down.

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

There's always an up side. Supposedly.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

Never thought I'd hear you preaching about silver linings.

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

I didn't really anticipate that part either, be honest.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

Maybe it's because some of yours involve eating people.

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

Not anymore.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

Oh. Right. The hanging up your evil card thing, or whatever.

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

It's funny how easily you accept Angel. I wasn't cursed, I can't lose my soul; I chose this, Buffy. He's a hero, and I'm 'whatever.' So bloody typical.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

All I have to go by here is your word on what a 'hero' you are in the future, Spike. You can't blame me for taking that with a grain of salt.

1/2

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

You're right. I'm sorry. You're right.

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

You gave me a chance once, and I believe you will again. In your time, I haven't done anything to deserve that chance, but if I can respect your position you can respect mine.

We became friends, alright, Slayer? Like it or not, we did. So imagine my frustration when I meet you and we're back to square one.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

It's hard to respect it when my first instincts are to go with a gag reflex, but fine. I'll try.

[... or something like that]

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

[Everything softens, his voice, his eyes, his whole general demeanor.] Know you don't have to do that, Buffy. Know I don't deserve it so ..

So thanks.

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

[This softer side of Spike is the most disturbing part of it all] Yeah. Ok, that doesn't mean we're gonna be besties, either.

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

That wasn't what I meant. I don't expect anything from you. You don't owe me anything.

If you're just talking to me out of pity, I'd rather be ignored. [It's a lie, but he can't exactly grovel.]

[cuzitswrong.livejournal.com]

It's definitely not pity. [says her merciless tone of voice :| ]

[rudolphofvamps.livejournal.com]

Well.. good. [ ;___; ]