[video] Rose: Make shocking discovery

[grimdarkseer]

The feed opens with Rose sat at her laptop, surrounded by Consorts of the various worlds and with a crystal ball at her side. The backdrop is very clearly not the Land of Light and Rain, with the brightness and rain being replaced by a very different atmosphere, though not one that can easily be discerned from here.

From the way she focuses on the screen, she doesn't appear to have noticed that the community is peeking into what she's doing. In time, she reaches over to the crystal ball and peers into it. The image that is revealed, possibly by the community's intent possibly by something else, has an immediate visible effect on Rose - she's not just shocked; she could almost be described as devastated if she didn't seem so utterly furious. And with that fury, the community seems to flicker a moment before settling down. When it does, Rose's expression is just a little darker than before.

For a time, Rose continues her conversation with Jade, this time latched onto by the community for all to see, and all the while a definite shadow appears to come over her. Not the shadow of grief but of something far bigger. The conversation comes to a halt with two lines.

TT: Maybe I will go kill Jack myself.
TT: Right now.

Almost as soon as those words leave her fingers, her discussion with Jade cuts out. The feed to the community lingers just long enough to see Rose's transformation into something rather more grimdark before the feed flickers once more and then cuts entirely.

(ooc: Next part of the Homestuck canon update and this one needs a little explaining. This covers a lot of it, though the deviation will shape a little differently - Rose will become herself again once she dies and revives on Derse. If anyone has any questions about it, let me know and I'll try and explain the logic a little more.

This means that Rose will be replying to comments to this post; however, they will come some considerable time later, after she reaches the castle, hunts down Jack, finds John, finds Jack, tries to take Jack on and dies. It also means that until then, Rose is on effective blackout from communication.

UPDATE/WARNING: Discussion of suicide in the comments)

Comments

[grimdarkseer]

As you are entitled to be.
Just as I am entitled to be just a little irritated when presented with such a succinct response that tells me nothing.

[papshooshing]

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU *WANT* ME TO SAY?

[grimdarkseer]

Well, right now I'm facing the prospect of using what is now my only life on destroying the Green Sun with nothing but your word that I will survive to tell the tale.
Far be it for me to tell you what you should be saying, but I'd prefer the time I have with access to the community to be rather more significant.

[papshooshing]

YOU WILL BE FINE.
I PROMISE, OKAY?
ONCE YOU FINISH THIS SHIT UP, YOU'LL KIND OF SEE THINGS WITH CLARITY.
JUST KEEP GOING THROUGH WITH THE PLAN.

[grimdarkseer]

There was never any doubt that I would.

[Even if she's scared shitless and trying to prepare everyone for the worst]

[papshooshing]

I'D SAY STOP WORRYING, THEN BUT IT'S PERFECTLY REASONABLE TO BE.

[grimdarkseer]

It's a little worrying having to face one's own death in such a manner.
There's not really much anyone can say to change that.

[papshooshing]

EVEN IF YOU REALLY DON'T DIE?

[grimdarkseer]

I'm going to blow up a gigantic mass of energy with a bomb.
Regardless of what comes afterwards, I would suggest that the likelihood of me not dying is negligible at best.

[papshooshing]

IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE.

[grimdarkseer]

I'm going to assume you refer to the events the community broadcast some time back, ostensibly of the future of the Alpha timeline.
Assuming that to be true, and assuming the ascension that seemingly goes in hand with that, perhaps you could remind me of what one of the prerequisites for such an achievement would be.
Because last I checked, death was a very necessary component.
Which brings me back to my point of "regardless of what comes afterwards".

[papshooshing]

UNLESS YOU'RE OUT THERE IN THE FURTHEST RING, FLOATING AROUND IN A DREAMBUBBLE
YOU'RE NOT DEAD.

[grimdarkseer]

You're still missing my point but I cannot say I'm entirely surprised by now.

[papshooshing]

NO, I GET THE POINT.
BUT I ALSO THINK THE POINT IS COMPLETELY ASININE, AS PER USUAL.
THAT'S WHAT I GET FOR BEING SO FAR INTO THE FUTURE AND YOU BEING SO FAR IN THE FUCKING PAST.
THE MOST YOU HAVE TO FRET OVER IS FEELING PAIN OR NOT, REALLY.
DEATH ISN'T EVEN THE END OF YOUR EXISTENCE.
FUCK, EVEN THE DEAD SHIT HEADS ARE FINDING WAYS TO TWEAK THE ODDS IN OUR FAVOR.
SO IT'S NOT LIKE DYING EQUALS BEING OUT OR HAVING A LACK OF AN IMPACT ON THE GAME OR THE PLAYERS THEMSELVES.

[grimdarkseer]

Oh well I am sorry that none of that changes the fact that facing my own death is not the easiest thing I've ever faced.
I'm sorry if feeling apprehensive about getting blown up, no matter what comes afterwards, is something about this I find unavoidable.
Now, unless you have anything useful to add that isn't entirely based around mocking me for not being at the same point in the timeline as you, I'm done with this conversation.

[papshooshing]

YOU ATTACKED JACK FUCKING NOIR.
IT'S NOT ABOUT MOCKING
THIS IS NOW ABOUT STABBING WHICH IS *PAINFUL* AS COMPARED TO BEING BLOWN UP.
BEING BLOWN UP IS KIND OF INSTANTANEOUS, BY THE WAY.
YOU PROBABLY, AND MOSTLY LIKELY, WILL NOT EVEN FEEL IT.
HELL, YOU MIGHT NOT FEEL *ANYTHING* BEYOND BEING BOOTED TO GOD TIER.
I'M *SAYING* DON'T BE GODDAMN AFRAID BECAUSE IT WILL TURN OUT JUST FINE, DAMMIT.

[grimdarkseer]

I also wasn't entirely myself when I went after Noir. My capacity for understanding the consequences of what I was about to do was somewhat diminished.
This time I know exactly what I'm doing.
And I hate to break it to you but human emotion doesn't work that way.
I can't just switch off the part of my brain that makes me afraid just because you think I should.
It's not going to change that I'm going to go through with it.
So I would appreciate it if you would stop trying to police the one thing I have any semblance of control over.