I can and I will. It's not like I want to go, but the other option is a lot worse. I come from a world that exists to get us to the point of being okay with moving on. I lived my life and I accept it, that's why the only thing I have left is a promise I made.
It'll have to deal with it! If it wants to bug whoever I reincarnate into then I don't mind. And everyone else.. well, I'm already dead it's just a matter of letting everyone actually accept that.
That's probably easy enough, it's the problems with sticking around that are going to be, well, problems. Battler already knows and agreed to letting me go.
Once Battler finishes, he'll go back to normal. He'll age if he doesn't die young from being stupid. So will Ange and Kirito if he ever gets out of that game. Suguha, Azula, Jin, 11-12, Kendrix, Akiho, Oriko, Greed [ she doesn't know about Greed okay ]... everyone's going to get old and die. The only ones who won't are the witches and-- do you age, with the whole god thing?
[ A beat. ]
The point is, I've watched everyone I care about die or stop existing more than once already. I don't want to do it again. Even if will live on.. I still can't live a normal life. If I stuck around, I can't have children or hold a job for more than a little while because eventually people would start questioning why I don't age-- or I'd end up in an accident with absolutely no injuries even though there's a lot of blood. Then suddenly it's mad scientist experiment time. I'm not going to stay by Battler's side and watch him grow old and start hating me because I can't grow old with him or get married or any of those things that I know he'll want eventually.
[ Yuri smiles a little. ] I can't just live for other people, anyway.. I've done that for long enough. I've got what I need already, too. Like I said, there's only one thing I have left to do. It'd be selfish to hold onto this soul for too much longer after that. Someone else needs it who can actually live with it. If I could actually be alive that'd be different, but I'm not looking to stay dead for much longer.
Edited (she knows too many people i give up there are a lot of people) 2013-10-07 21:25 (UTC)
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[ A beat. ]
The point is, I've watched everyone I care about die or stop existing more than once already. I don't want to do it again. Even if will live on.. I still can't live a normal life. If I stuck around, I can't have children or hold a job for more than a little while because eventually people would start questioning why I don't age-- or I'd end up in an accident with absolutely no injuries even though there's a lot of blood. Then suddenly it's mad scientist experiment time. I'm not going to stay by Battler's side and watch him grow old and start hating me because I can't grow old with him or get married or any of those things that I know he'll want eventually.
[ Yuri smiles a little. ] I can't just live for other people, anyway.. I've done that for long enough. I've got what I need already, too. Like I said, there's only one thing I have left to do. It'd be selfish to hold onto this soul for too much longer after that. Someone else needs it who can actually live with it. If I could actually be alive that'd be different, but I'm not looking to stay dead for much longer.