video;

[spiritually]

[ Natsume doesn't quite realize that he visibly looks like he's been crying when he switches the video on. Those items they had for the virus are gone and he..

Well, what he got was something he never wanted to lose because it was something that couldn't exist in this time anymore. So a little frantically, he's made his post with his eyes looking slightly red, slightly puffy, slightly wet like he tried to wipe them but didn't quite wait to make sure everything was clear. ]

Did-- [ Oh, his voice cracked for a second there. ] Is there any way to get items from viruses back? It's just something little, it's not.. a huge deal, but I thought it would be nice to see for even just a little bit longer.

[ Natsume, you've been crying. It's obviously a big deal to you. ]

Comments

locked;

[circulated]

...Natsume...?

[This is a little troubling to her, actually. She can already tell that he's been crying (those puffy red eyes can't fool her!!), and it's setting some worry into her heart. Whatever it is, she's looking concerned once she flips on her end of the feed.]

...what did you lose? It couldn't have not been a huge deal if you're reacting like this.

locked;

[spiritually]

Like..? It's nothing huge, just.. a couple of flowers. That's all.

locked;

[circulated]

But you were crying over them...who were they from? They must have meant something to you.

locked;

[spiritually]

I wasn't-- [ He reaches up to wipe his eyes still, like he's trying to make sure they're not wet. ] I think they were the flowers from my mom's garden.

locked;

[circulated]

Your mother's...? [Oh, right. Natsume's parents...it's a touchy subject that she'd want to avoid, but.] Why did you have flowers from your mother? Or...her garden.

locked;

[spiritually]

I think.. the virus was giving people things that they used to have, or things that were important to them.

locked;

[circulated]

[A virus? It must have been something she must have missed...but still.]

And you got your mother's flowers? How important were they to her...?

[shadow_spread]

I'm afraid I haven't heard of that being possible.

[locked]

Is there anything I can do?

locked;

[spiritually]

No I just..

I don't remember a lot about him, but I remember my dad told me once that my mom grew flowers in our backyard but he didn't know if they would bloom anymore since she couldn't take care of them. [ Natsume closes his eyes for a moment. ] I barely remember, really, but.. I know that the flowers I got this time were from that garden. I never got to see them bloom because my dad died before spring and I had to move to other places, but it was them.

[makewayforroze]

[She won't show she's worried. If she does, he seems less likely to want to tell her. Still, it hurts her to see him like this.]

Did you lose something important?

[spiritually]

I.. don't know if I can really lose it if it wasn't mine to begin with. I've never seen them before now, but.. they were the type of flower that grew in a garden I used to know about. Everyone else was getting things that were important to them, so... I think it has to be from there.

[makewayforroze]

A garden you used to know what? [What does that mean? It's obviously very important to him but she doesn't understand.]

[spiritually]

My mom grew flowers before she passed away. My dad told me about them.

[makewayforroze]

[That's when her heart finishes breaking. He's sad and he's being honest with her and just go there so she can hug you, Natsume.]

They're very beautiful. She must have been very good.

[spiritually]

I.. don't know. He said she was.

[ He barely remembers him, let alone her. So why does it hurt so much?

Oh right because most of his life was spent with people who didn't want him because the only people who did died. ]

video;

[selfished]

[ Dammit, Natsume, how dare you make posts to the community right after you've been crying and having it actually be visible because it makes all alarm bells go off with Kyouko instantly. She grits her teeth, obviously frustrated -- it's not with him though as much as it's the fact that she knows she can't do anything to help. Even though it's been something he was crying over. ]

Ya know the community ain't that kind..

video;

[spiritually]

I know.. I just thought, maybe since it was an actual item...

[ Maybe he could get it back. He looks down. ]

[selfished]

Natsume! It.. it's gone, 'kay? [ Sometimes she really wishes she could be a little more gentle about situations, but.. in the end, this just what she is. So it slips out before she even fully realises it. ] All ya can do is just.. deal with it!

[spiritually]

I know...

[ He definitely knows. ]

I just-- it wasn't something I could ever see. I never thought I would be able to.

[selfished]

Then aren't ya already glad you got to see it just for a little while?

[ Usually Natsume is simple like that, after all. Kyouko can hardly even wrap her mind around half of the times he seems to get happy so easily out of nowhere. ]

[spiritually]

Yeah, but...

[ But he lost them, again. He doesn't even remember his mother. It's so hard to explain though, and he cares about Kyouko, so he doesn't.. want to make her feel bad because he does. ]

Maybe I should think of it that way.

[embersandashes]

I seriously doubt it. Virus effects are rarely-- if ever-- permanent.

[spiritually]

I thought maybe since it was a physical item, I might be able to dry and keep them but I guess not.. Thanks.

[loneliest]

[spiritually]

Hello..?

[ Natsume is definitely confused by this thing... it looks kind of like it might be something.. youkai-y. ]