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[masked_god]

[Karakael is curled up at a window-seat, back against the wall and looking out at his desert home. He wears an outfit from the Inquest he abandoned long ago - a dark pink cloak molding with the flesh of his bare chest that pools at his waist and joins the black leggings and kilt. He wears a silver mask with vivid blue tears dripping from the eyes.]

Strange to think how much can change in a mere Earth year. Strange too how much one can gain and lose in that same amount of time.

Kefka is gone, likely for good. I wonder which is worse, knowing that he still lives but with no memory of this place...or realizing that his memory might fade from my mind as well, erasing the time we spent together.

In my world being ripped apart by time and fate is not unusual. Often lovers would watch as their loved ones were frozen in time, knowing that what once was passion would fade into history in a hundred years time. Death for one, forgetting for the other...

This is the first time I've been on the side of the forgotten rather than the forgetter. Strange, how it stings, making one wonder what the point of love is at all, if it is nothing but fleeting.

Really, is it worth it?

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[archerartemis]

I don't know, honestly. I mean, I'd like to think so, but seeing what some people call "love"?

[masked_god]

Indeed. It is a rather vague term, allowing for quite a few unfortunate interpretations.

[TW: vague allusions to abuse]

[archerartemis]

The way my dad raised me and my sister wasn't loving, all right. Or the way he let Mom get hurt and arrested just so he could get away. Or the way my sister ran away from home and didn't bring me with her because she thought I'd slow her down.

[masked_god]

Its preferable to...well, there is no point in comparing sob-stories, is there? Some parents should never be allowed to bear offspring. If love can bloom in the most unforgiving places, so to can it decay in the most fertile.

I am glad you have escaped them.

[archerartemis]

No kidding.

anon;

[refinedvillian]

Nearly everything is fleeting. That's why it's important to indulge yourself while it's in your possession.

[masked_god]

Perhaps. But I lived a life full of indulgences, once, and even wanton pleasure becomes hollow eventually.

anon;

[refinedvillian]

Have you fallen in love so many times it has lost it's meaning? If so, I would have to question if it was truly love.

[masked_god]

Fifteen thousand years is a long time for any love to remain pure. I have seen lovers ripped apart by time through no fault of their own, and others who grow apart merely because they grew into someone new over the stretch of centuries. Passionate, aching promise is for the young; those of us who have seen lovers die time and again must adapt a different philosophy.

written;

[moonspell]

It's worth it. Even if it hurts and you know that you won't be able to experience that feeling again with that person, having that feeling can give you hope to know that there are people out there that make all the hardships worth living through. Even if you lose them in the end.

[masked_god]

What a hopeful speech! Tell me, how have you come to be so passionate about such a thing? Do you speak from experience?

[moonspell]

I had feelings for someone once, though nothing came of them. I've seen others who are in love though, and even though I hadn't been able to have mine returned I still am grateful to be able to have felt that.

[masked_god]

So you would rather have loved and lost than never loved at all?

But tell me...if you had never felt love, would you ever miss it?

[embersandashes]

You were Kefka's lover?

[masked_god]

Mmm. It depends upon one's definition of the term. But yes.

[embersandashes]

Why on Earth would somebody date Kefka of all people?

[masked_god]

[Azula, you just asked a man who is pining to describe the object of his affection. Expect tl;dr...]

Because...

Because he's an amazing, wonderful man at the beginning of his life. He has seen horror and become stronger for it, taken a whole world's scorn and rejection and made it part of himself.

And inspite of everything he has gone through, he has not lost his capacity for wonder. Chaos runs though his veins and he remakes the world anew around him. In many ways, he has a stronger conviction than any of us could hope for, and he uses it to care - in his own way - for those around him.

He has yet to be broken by the world and that is...refreshing. He is kind without being idiotic and hopeful without being naive.

And he cared for me back. He was fascinated with who I am, rather than who I was, and accepted my fractured soul without flinching. He found my scars fascinating, not shameful or hideous. And...and he promised to remain until my story was done. He held off from destroying the thing he hates most because of his affection for me.

There is much to love about Kefka. He is -was- a wonderful, amazing young man. It is...hard to accept a future without him.

[fallen_stage]

Tragic, doomed love is a tale more common than realized. Such love is a common theme for certain art forms in my world, but everyday romances rarely have such a length for mourning.

You have my sympathies: for what is romantic in a story can be unbearable to experience.

[masked_god]

Indeed. The stories tend to romanticize what is agony to endure.

[fallen_stage]

There is romance in suffering beautifully, but in reality it's much more mundane and painful.

I may not have lived for as long as you have, but I do know something of heartache. Just as the agony is exaggerated, so is the length: the keenness of the pain will subside, and you'll be left a better person for the experience.

[masked_god]

Indeed. Amazing how it never feels quite the same, and yet the anguish is always there.

I hope you are right. And perhaps he will fade from my mind faster simply because he was never from my universe.

[handwritten]

[lifeisbrief]

I think it is.

[masked_god]

May I ask why you believe this?

[handwritten]

[lifeisbrief]

Because...love means you made a difference in someone's life, even if it doesn't last long. I think that's important.

[masked_god]

But what if the difference doesn't last? Then is it pointless because they haven't changed?