[accidental & failed private post to community in emotional keysmashing rush]

[quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com]

Dead... Dead
He's.. gone? He's fucking--

I can't even. What...

Bad dream. Bad bad bad bad fucking dream. Fuck it. Fuck ALL of this!

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[anon forever]

[greenwithme.livejournal.com]

Someone close to you has passed away?

1/2

[quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com]

Fuck it. I don't want to talk about it.

2/♥

[quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com]

Recently. It's a bit of a shock. No, that's putting it lightly.

[greenwithme.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear that. I've lost some good friends in the past, too. Family. I miss my older sister a lot...

[He's totally fishing for clues, since he can't see that video... But he really does miss Lust...]

[quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com]

He was my only family. It doesn't feel real. I don't want to say 'yet', because I don't want to ever feel real; you know? I don't understand why this happened.

[greenwithme.livejournal.com]

That's exactly how I felt when my sister was murdered. I wanted to go after the punks who did her in, but dear old Dad wanted to let my older brother handle the situation. It sucks, not being able to vindicate your feelings... It hurts, knowing those two are still running around breathing when Big Sis will never smile again...

How did he... you know? Pass away?

[quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com]

I don't know for sure. I'll leave it to the perils of the community to put 'fate' to work. I wouldn't be able to give anyone details- not that I would; because it's so freakin fucked up.

I wish there was someone who had control over this.
To give you false hope of "surviving" and then have it all taken away.
Like it's all a goddamn bad dream? I'm so tired of getting my hopes up, is all.

[greenwithme.livejournal.com]

Fate, huh? So, you believe in that sort of thing?

[quicksavensmoke.livejournal.com]

Not really. Technically fate is just what happens in life. Some people think it's some astrological bullcrap, and other people believe that fate is just a word for what happens as you live.