[oo4] daydreams

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

[The daydream is displayed from a first-person perspective, obviously that of a child, running into a kitchen with small arms out in front of him, hands visible. A beautiful woman with red-painted lips and waist length black hair in a hime cut turns, her mouth curved up into a warm smile, and a handsome blonde man folds his newspaper in half, putting it aside.

The woman turns and bends, leaning in to the child, arms extending to him, everything is warm, and perfect. You can almost smell the homemade breakfast in the air.]

Seiju...my Seiju. You're smiling. Don't ever stop smiling, Seiju, or all your happiness will elude you...remember that, okay?

[As she speaks, blood dribbles from the corner of her mouth, and the entire daydream falls apart, with only darkness and blood on pavement, and his knees visible, hands against them.]

'It's funny, even in a daydream, I can never hold on to that morning.'

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[Voice]

[stripping.livejournal.com]

A-are you... are you all right?

[voice] delayed maybe 10 minutes

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

Oh! I'm perfectly fine. I didn't realize that was being broadcast, or I'm afraid I would've thought about something much more pleasant.

[voice]

[stripping.livejournal.com]

Do you think about morbid things like that often...?

[voice]

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

[his voice is slightly stuffed up]

Ah, unfortunately so, that one in particular. It's one of my recurring nightmares, I suppose you could say.

[voice]

[stripping.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. Things like that... I know that they can plague you for a long time.

[voice]

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

Mm. It's as she said - I just have to remember to keep smiling, and everything will be fine, right?

[voice]

[stripping.livejournal.com]

...Sorry, but that's wrong. Smiling when you're unhappy is worse than even tears.

[voice]

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

[that actually startles a small laugh out of him]

You really do sound like Shouta-kun!

[voice]

[stripping.livejournal.com]

I hope that's a good thing.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

Seiju...

/delayed by approximately 10 minutes

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

I'm quite alright, it was just a passing thought.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

That's your parents, isn't it?

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

Ah...yes, it is.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

They're very beautiful. You take after your mother.

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

[he brings his hand up over his face and turns away from the camera for a few long moments, shoulders hunching slightly, before lowering his hand and looking back again]

I haven't been told that in a very long time.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

Are you alright?

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

Mmhmm. I'll be fine. It's ust a bit of a sensitive subject, and I don't talk about it very often.

[makewayforroze.livejournal.com]

Would you rather talk about something else?

[hok-ton.livejournal.com]

They never fade, do they? Those memories that haunt and poison all else.

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

They don't seem to.

[hok-ton.livejournal.com]

Pity.

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

It is. I've often wished for something that would make things go back to the way they were.

[hok-ton.livejournal.com]

Remain here long enough and the community might provide exactly that. Though whether by then you will still wish for it is another story.

[togotosleep.livejournal.com]

That's very deep. I know the community has strange powers, like this virus, but...to make things go back to how they were? I'm not sure if that's even possible.

[hok-ton.livejournal.com]

There have been viruses where ones deepest wish comes true, or where one can live out any fantasy. Perhaps making them permanent is impossible, but one return at least for a time.