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[schrodingersghost]

 I don't get it.  Why am I so depressed and angry all of a sudden?  I thought I was over this.

...Jazz is going to try to psychoanalyze me again.  I just know it.

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[justanothercop]

You're feeling off then, too? Seems like a lot of people are.

[schrodingersghost]

Yeah, ever since I woke up.

[justanothercop]

Same. And I've had things on my mind that... puzzle me. Stuck in my head as it were and not the normal stuff that gets jammed up in there.

[Normal stuff like his wife and his work and his wife and his wife...]

[schrodingersghost]

Depressed and angry?

[justanothercop]

Sort of but not... [How does he say this without sounding like a prat? That he's feeling emotions that seem a little - juvenile to him? An angsty teenager?] I guess you could call them traces of my 'misspent' youth.

[Granted, the emotions he was feeling were a welcome change from the dark hole he had been in and he didn't feel the compulsion to spend another day going through endless files but - something was wrong.]

That, and I can't stop thinking about Christmas. It's August where I am. I'm getting a little annoyed that Christmas is trudging all over my late summer.

[schrodingersghost]

Yeah? Well its Christmas here. And it sucks. Like everything else. [Like all this guilt and anger he couldn't seem to shake.]

[justanothercop]

[That causes Robbie to arch an eyebrow. That description sounds eerily familiar to how he feels right now.]

That's more or less how I feel right now - about Christmas - only I've never felt it before the holidays or in this way before. Can't seem to shake it. [quieter, more to himself] And then this resentment bit... What's all that about?

[schrodingersghost]

Why are you asking me?

[justanothercop]

Wasn't askin' you, now was I? Just talking to meself. That's all.

[A wee bit snappier and whinier than anything Lewis would normally say by a long shot.]

[schrodingersghost]

Maybe you should try and make that a little more obvious. Because it wasn't. [As usual for him, Danny was forcing his anger and depression into snark and irritation.]

[justanothercop]

I'm sorry Your Lordship. I'll try harder next time.

[And now we've devolved into the teenage bickering - great.]

What's gotten up yer nose anyways?

[schrodingersghost]

Like you care.

[justanothercop]

[pauses - pulls a few faces as he tries to regain some of his composure and dignity]

Look, I think the community is up to tricks again. I'm feeling things I shouldn't be and so are you. Maybe if we talk or something we can figure it out.

[schrodingersghost]

.,..Seriously?

[justanothercop]

Beats the hell out of sitting here and arguing.

[schrodingersghost]

...I guess.

[justanothercop]

So. Besides angry and depressed are you feeling anything else?

[schrodingersghost]

...I don't want to talk about it.

[justanothercop]

That's not helpful.

[schrodingersghost]

I know. Still don't want to talk about it.

[notmyfirstrodeo]

Could be teenage angst.

But more likely than not, something's going on right now with the network.

[schrodingersghost]

Teenage angst I know. My sister thinks she's a psychologist and she's made a point of lecturing me in far too much detail about the healthy adolescent psyche.

This is something different. [He's almost think Spectra was hanging around somewhere if he wasn't sure she was still recovering from their last encounter.]

[notmyfirstrodeo]

Well, probably not that then.

[A thoughtful nod.] I think you're probably right. Though what exactly, I'm not sure.

[schrodingersghost]

Could be lots of things. Personally, I'm betting on ghost attack.

[notmyfirstrodeo]

Ghost attack? Ghosts can have that effect on people?

[schrodingersghost]

Easily. Some of them feed off negative emotions. So they've figured out how to create them.

[notmyfirstrodeo]

I see. Never heard of ghosts being able to do that. Then again, I'm woefully underinformed about ghosts and their activities in general.

[schrodingersghost]

I kind of can't avoid hearing about them.

[notmyfirstrodeo]

I imagine so.

Of course, if it's not ghosts, it may be a bit more widespread.

[schrodingersghost]

Something in the community you mean?

[notmyfirstrodeo]

Maybe. There's a lot of commotion from it today.

[schrodingersghost]

Figures.

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[hulk]

Yeah, that. You never really get over it. It just pretty much stays that way. You just have to power through it and try not to... Yeah.

[ ...he is the least optimistic bucket of feels right now. ]

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[schrodingersghost]

...Great. Something to look forward to.

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[hulk]

You don't deserve somebody lying instead and saying that one day things just click into place.

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[schrodingersghost]

If someone told me that, I wouldn't believe them.

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[hulk]

Cause you're a smart kid.

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[schrodingersghost]

You don't have to be smart to see through something like that.

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[hulk]

And yet not a lot of people actually do. They just stick to it and then, wham. You get a rough awakening and a pile of student loans. And that's if you're lucky.

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[schrodingersghost]

...I'm not seeing where student loans come in.

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[hulk]

I'm just saying.

[ It somehow makes sense to his current bag-of-cats logic. ]

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[schrodingersghost]

Sorry, I just don't get it.

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[hulk]

You will.

[ Or you won't. He's just cat-bagged brain and pissy and a little unhinged so. Sense. Nope. ]

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[schrodingersghost]

[Danny, trapped in an unending loop of guilt and anger and grief, was hardly in the right state of mind to think his way through this. As usual for him, he channels all of his emotions into superficial irritation.]

Right. Of course I will.