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[antibadstuff]

[ There's no message after this video like her last one. She'll respond to this post, but the replies will ICly come much later. After she's stopped trying to figure out why she went and made out with Spike for a while after this little diddy, thank god it didn't show that. What is her life.

..And no the Hungarian subs do not show up on the video to the comm, ignore those. ]

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[hasbottombunk]

[well hey that description of being in heaven sounded familiar!]

...Buffy?

[antibadstuff]

Guess I don't really need to talk anymore, huh?

[hasbottombunk]

Not if you don't want to. I'd understand.

[antibadstuff]

Not much else to say besides that, is there? [ That being her song. ] I was there... and now I'm here. Where nothing feels [ at all? ] right.

[hasbottombunk]

The way you described it...no pain, fear, doubt..

I felt that way recently.

[antibadstuff]

[ She's not so sure about that. It couldn't be the same. ]

It's not like anything you can really experience when you're.. alive. It's like being whole, completed, and you know that everything's the way it should be. Warm and comfortable. Peaceful and loved. I don't know that that's anything anyone could feel while they're still breathing.

[hasbottombunk]

But that's...that's exactly how it was.

There was a virus. It was when you were...gone. Everyone was feeling someone's else's emotions but I could never figure out where the one I felt had come from.

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[likethetragedy]

[That last part really punched her in the feelings so you're getting only text from Elektra.]

Tell me you punched the thing that clapped afterward.

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[antibadstuff]

He's left. Didn't have to hit him to get him to do that. He was there because someone summoned him and didn't realize the bad things this could cause. The whole.. musical thing here should stop in a little bit too. There's a little bit still going on, but by morning at least..

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[likethetragedy]

Good to know. I'm not much of a singer.

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[antibadstuff]

Can't say I'm a big fan either.

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[likethetragedy]

I wouldn't blame you for hating it after this.

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[antibadstuff]

The only difference is now my friends feel bad because I'm alive. It wasn't something they needed to deal with. [ It hasn't made it hurt any less to get it out, either. ]

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[doyoufondue]

[ Sure, it's a demon. Sure that's a song. He could comment on her being in hell but he knew that already. What's really bothering him is the smoke while she spun... ]

You were going to do it, weren't you?

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[antibadstuff]

[ She was hoping no one would pick up on that. That in that moment, that look to that demon, that offer he'd made her to just give in and let it end...

It was just like Spike had told her a year ago. The second you want it, even a little bit, that's when you lose. She wanted it a lot right now and she'd let it happen and the one person who stopped her was the person who'd told her how to let it happen in the first place. ]

I-- I'm not going to try again.

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[doyoufondue]

Good. That's not the way out.

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[antibadstuff]

All it takes is wanting it for even a second. If it'd been anything this guy I probably..

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[doyoufondue]

All it takes is being a moron for a second.

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[antibadstuff]

You mean like the kind of moron who has a dead guy without a soul telling her that it gets better?

[whitechocolate]

[That bit about her being in heaven is really kind of chilling and makes Sam sad.]

What was that thing with the red face?

[antibadstuff]

Uh, demon. The one responsible for causing all the singing. [ A pause. ] I think the community just decided to spread the "fun."

[whitechocolate]

Is that thing on the end of his chin supposed to be a beard or what?

[antibadstuff]

He's a demon. It's kind of just a part of his face.

[whitechocolate]

A demon that makes you sing like you're on Broadway.

[antibadstuff]

Hey, I'm not the one who makes this stuff up.