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[The camera picks up a deep red couch and stone for a moment. The couch is empty. For the moment. Someone walks in. Heavy footsteps. Sits down in front of the laptop. Dull eyed and empty. Wearing a priest's outfit. He peers into the laptop for a few moments. Not particularly long, but not a quick glance. He seems to be clicking something, or else checking it.

Ah. He's got it now. He shifts his gaze from the keyboard up to the red blinking camera light.]

I'll be right back.

[Voomp. The video closes. Not suspiciously quickly. Don't get any ideas. Just a hanging moment, as he finds the right key, and x's it out.

A few moments later, this text appears.]

Now then. What can you tell me?

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[Every time they talk, it always seems as if Archer already knows what he sees. He must, surely. It's the only way this makes sense. It's not just a simple matter of seeming to have a script, the way the Lancers do. A sort of predicting, only with Kirei filling in gaps as necessary. A sort of pushing, or maybe a sort of pulling, or maybe a sort of both.

He thinks that, maybe, perhaps, they were so focused on his shadow that they missed the giant walking with it. And that thought makes him smile a little. Not quite a smirk. But he knows things they don't know, and once they know them, it'd be too late. There's still a slump to his shoulders, and a feeling like his heart's been tied into a knot like a pretzel. But he meets Archer's gaze, all the same, and doesn't flinch the way he's sure he should.]

They seem to talk quite a lot.

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[It is a strange feeling. Of being known. Not from reverse. Not when they already have the script. It scares him, deep down. Nobody else seems to. Maybe they haven't tried. Maybe he hasn't. It's the same, either way. A separation. A dividing line, between himself and the world. One that gets wider and wider every day. He must always be alone. He must.

It is strange, to have someone so willing to cross the line and drag him out. Kicking and screaming. The line is still there. Still sharp in his mind. But Archer plays jump rope with that line, and holds out his hand for him there.

And Kirei knows he can't take it.

Once he does, there is no going back.]

I suppose it's something of a gift.

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[A wall that he can't allow to fall. There are already bricks torn out of it. So many, you can see through to the other side. Chips away. The flaking of paint. Cracks in the brick. But it stays up, all the same. Propped up, if it must be. Once the wall starts breaking, it can't be repaired. Once the wall falls, it can't be replaced. So it stays up, as threadbare as it looks. It must. Even if it threatens to topple. Even if it threatens to crush.

He doesn't want what's on the other side. Even through the glimpses, even through the missing pieces, he fears what he sees. And there is a certain man with a sledgehammer, just waiting and pushing and knocking bricks out as he will.]

I don't see a reason they wouldn't.

[They despise him. Don't trust him. View him as an enemy. For crimes he hasn't committed yet. And then lord those crimes over his head, unwilling to take action against them. They're on the other side of the wall, looking in.

But they seem to not know that he's capable of looking out.]

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[He already carries so much weight on his shoulders. What's one more to him? And there is something in the way he bends to the pressure. The heft of it all. Not like a twig, crushed underfoot. Not like the straw on the back of the camel. Not like pieces of silver, clattered to the floor. The heaviness to him, that winds around him, inescapably. That tears asunder. That keeps the wall from falling entirely, just by puffs of oxygen, just by words that wind around, just by thoughts that constrict, that he holds and lets go, that he thinks and ignores.]

It'd be a shame, if all that effort went to waste.

[Like the legions of wine bottles, scattered throughout the room. But then, he reminds himself that he never intended to drink from them in the first place. So maybe it's good that someone is getting use from them.

If not so much for his collection. Or his wallet. Or the haziness of the room, that breaks and melts like gold.]

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[He knows the prayers by heart. By repetition. The same phrases. Of entreaty. Protection. Salvation. In Latin. In English. In Japanese. In the wordless panic of a heartless heart. The calling out, as an attempt to call down. To be delivered from evil. To walk through the shadow of the valley of death, and fear no evil. O Lord do not rebuke me, for I am weak.

And then words wind their way around him like ivy. The tilt of a wine glass that teeters but never falls. The eyes that gleam like rubies, with darkness spun in the center. A glitter, almost. Something sharp. That pierces him, that cuts through the quick like daggers in the night.]

They went through all this trouble. Didn't they?

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[There's an emptiness inside his heart that grows when they're around. The feeling of calling up, afraid and alone, and hearing nothing. Just the crickets in summer, and the wind in winter. The burning in his fingers, to the point they become numb. The silence that deafens. To the point he doubts. The doubts grow to keep pace with the hole in his heart. That he thought once could be filled.

And he was wrong.

He rests on the couch. Unspread open. Just a pause. A sense of quiet. And though his thoughts hum as always and burn as always, for a moment he is content to drown.]