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[mariannethree]

Order: 1104
Chaos: 45

Little book, people often use you to ask for help, correct?

I need some advice. In my land - my 'world' as you would call it - I live in a library.

At night, if I leave the lights on, people come and bang on the windows of the room I sleep in, yelling at me to give them books. When I turn the lights off they disappear, but they come back if I have to turn the light back on for any reason.

Do you have any advice on how I could get them to stop? Its frightening to have people look at me like that. It makes me feel ugly and dissected, and knowing that they're never really gone, only dissuaded for a while, is making it difficult to sleep.

Thank you for any advice you care to give.

Marianne Z.
Under Assistant
The Library

Comments

[tenminutes]

What are you waiting for?

[mariannethree]

Nothing. I am just waiting.

[tenminutes]

If you wait around for nothing you're going to waste your life.

[mariannethree]

I am still unconvinced that there is a better alternative.

[tenminutes]

Isn't that just because you haven't tasted better?

[mariannethree]

I've tasted worse.

[tenminutes]

You're satisfied with that?

[mariannethree]

I have been warned away. Is that not enough?

[tenminutes]

Well.. I know someone once said that "the best things in life are free" but in reality, nothing worth having can ever be reached without working for it. Even if that means knowing what happens if you fail.

[mariannethree]

Perhaps the problem is that the bar for "success" has been set much higher for me, and the consequences of failure are much greater.

[tenminutes]

So make sure you don't fail. I can't make you do anything, so if you're fine with not succeeding and just being then fine, but I don't think you should avoid trying just because you're afraid.

[mariannethree]

People continue to say that. But fear is a wonderful protector. Without it, I would have lost my mind or my body long ago. It seems foolish to ignore something that has saved me so many times.

[tenminutes]

Of course it's a wonderful protector, but if you never put it aside then it becomes a hindrance.

[mariannethree]

What if it is never a hindrance?

[tenminutes]

So you like being trapped and scared all the time?

[mariannethree]

Not...not really.

[tenminutes]

That sounds like a hindrance to me.