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[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

You have no idea how hard it is to live in my equivalent of a supermarket (and don't ask me to explain that, because I won't bother). But since I'm a guest, I'm trying to be on my best behavior.

So I tried out a little experiment. Why not trade one addictive habit for another? Every time I thought about killing someone in the last few days, I'd smoke a cigarette. Today I realized I was up to three packs a day, and that it was probably time to quit.

Maybe I should try talking to her.

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[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's... what I was thinking.

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

You really want to fix this, I can tell. Just... make sure she knows that.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

... What? How can you tell?

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

I don't know, it's just... the way you're acting. It's like you legitimately don't feel right that you guys are fighting.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

She was-- she used to be one of the few people in the world who actually cares about me. I can count that number off on one hand, so. Yeah. It bothers me.

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

She still cares. She zapped you over it. That means she cares enough to be pissed, which means you'll be in the clear when she calms down. Probably.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

That's a pretty big "probably".

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

I don't know her, so I'm not going to pretend I can say for sure. But, that's what I know from my experience with women of all kinds.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid I ruined it.

1/2 AS JIM'S HEART FALLS TO PIECES ON THE GROUND

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's too late to fix it.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

I don't know.

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. Just tell her it's my fault. Is there anything I can do? Don't let it discourage you. I mean, trying is... trying to fix it counts for something at least.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

But trying is just... trying. Almost doesn't count and all that.

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

She cares. She'll forgive you as long as you go looking for it after she calms down.

...

She'd be stupid not to.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

She can be pretty stupid sometimes.

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

Well, cross your fingers that this isn't one of those times.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

That's all I really can do, isn't it?

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

Pretty much.

If you're that worried, call her in the morning instead of waiting any longer.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

I'm not that worried!

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

I'm not.

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

Well, hell, why not? I'd be shitting my pants right now if I were you.

[intuitivelyapt.livejournal.com]

... Shut up! And you would not!

[yeswedo.livejournal.com]

Not literally! But, I'm serious.