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[cattish]

[ shijima looks tired. she looks strangely old for her childish appearance, somehow. bitter. sad, and deeply lonely. she's also naked, apart from a blanket wrapped around herself. ]

Hello, community. I am an immortal creature. My existence is almost two centuries old. The only desire I have in this world is to die. And it seems that the community would kindly like me to know that the power that could have granted my wish is going to be lost forever before I can be released.

[ she doesn't sound upset. it's the same voice as ever, although perhaps a bit flatter. ]

Tell me how bad your day was. Maybe it has a chance of making me feel better about mine.

[ so sarcastic and scathing it burns. ]

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[owlcreation]

That is it, then.

[ there is the hint of a question in it. a hint of something else. a statement. a deep tiredness, even through words. a receded hope. part of him refuses, part of him will keep refusing. another part - death struggles over. holds down the well-waters of loneliness. encroached.

they've tried. he knows they have. his body would have bore the marks of it, if it could. his body would have never mended so cleanly, if something had worked. if something might have - but, the cogs turn. thoughts flicker toward solutions, untried. but it, too, dies. (unlike him. unlike her. unlike the passage of time.) he knows. he knows.

he knows. ]

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[cattish]

That's it.

I don't want to have to tolerate your existence forever.

[ she doesn't want to live forever. ]

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[owlcreation]

Ha ha. How cruel.

[ there is no energy behind it. nothing. there is nothing, at all. he knows her wish. he knows his own. it hasn't changed, since the beginning.

but, there is a long pause before another text: ]

Do we lose sight of it being avoided, I wonder? Even if we must work blindly, to try is not new.

[masked_god]

My last few months have been spent playing chess against sentient rocks with a penchant for exploding whenever they lose.

However, that cannot compare to your existence. I...I have lived an existence not unlike your own, and for that you have my sympathies. If there is anything I can do to make your life less painful, please tell me.

[cattish]

If I haven't found something that makes it less painful in the past two centuries, I doubt it can be found now. I'm a creature that shouldn't exist in the first place. That I have to live forever is the last straw.

[masked_god]

IF you've run out of entertainment in only two hundred years, then your world must be boring indeed. Perhaps a change of scenery is in order.

Self-pity and suicidal? Tch. They don't make them like they used to...

[makewayforroze]

What's happened?

[cattish]

Simply, the boy with the power that could have ended my life seems to instead rid the world of that ability in the near future, thus dooming me to permanent immortality. How cruel, right?

That is, if the community's projections are to be believed.

[makewayforroze]

Why would you want to die?

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[omnomsgods]

It wasn't that bad. [ Thanks for asking? ] But... why is it you want to die?

[cattish]

I am a creature that should never have existed. Beyond that, I've suffered this planet and its dominant species far too long for my tastes.

[omnomsgods]

...You look human to me.

[anothersoul]

Such is the problem with wishes.

[cattish]

Everything is unreliable; not just wishes.

Unfortunately, if there were another way, I would have used it already. There is nothing for me but the Shinrabanshou, and if she cannot erase me, I'm afraid I'll be very much doomed.

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[novicius]

Mine was... normal?

[A pause, and a frown.]

Why do you want to die?

[cattish]

How nice for you.

Have you ever tried living for two centuries? It becomes tiresome long before the first hundred years. I shouldn't have existed to begin with, and I'd simply like it to be over.

[novicius]

Two centuries?

Dio, learning about the future itself was confusing enough. I cannot imagine living that long.

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[pawful]

[ Ha. "Two centuries"? Was that all? Such dramatics. ]

Death is the only way out for you...?

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[cattish]

Of course. In all honesty, a creature like me shouldn't have been made in the first place, but I'm quite willing to settle for death.

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[pawful]

An endless sleep serves the same purpose.

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[harbingersoul]

[ah. she is so young, to have the same desire.] Hope is easily lost.

[cattish]

It certainly didn't help that we only had one option from the beginning.

[harbingersoul]

There is no opportunity present in a conjoined world?

[timey_wimey]

What?

[ ... yeah, that's all you're getting for now, Shijima. answers, catgirl. he would like some. then the sympathy can begin. ]

How can something that powerful just suddenly disappear?

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[For all that he had some idea, it's a long time before he replies.
200 years isn't that long, at least not for many people of some sort that Masamori knows. He suspects there is something unspoken. Something that makes it more painful. But he won't pry, for now.]

The only power?