[text; attempted (and utterly failed) anon]

[croibhristeoir]

There is a matter which I have found myself considering more and more often in recent days, though I can not say I know what precisely began such contemplation. The community's nature in particular complicates the idea itself, which does not help matters if one were to try coming to a conclusion of some kind. What it can be narrowed down to at its core is, I think, a mere question of five words.

Do you believe in fate?

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[croibhristeoir]

My best guess was along the lines of whatever power controls this place enjoying particularly strange games. A peculiar reasoning for viruses in general, but it seems to be all I can think of.

[fortheworld]

Then we are toys then. An unpleasant thought.

[croibhristeoir]

It could be that is the price for being able to alter our futures, whether or not they were ever predetermined by fate.

[fortheworld]

If such things do come with prices, it should seek at consent first.

[croibhristeoir]

In a just world, it likely would.

Unfortunately I've long given up on believing the world in general has a sense of justice to it.

[fortheworld]

Justice is purely a human construct. It is as fractured and unpredictable as we are.

[croibhristeoir]

It bothers me to admit as much, but I fear I have to agree with you.

[fortheworld]

We seem to have gone a little off topic.

[croibhristeoir]

Right, of course. Please accept my apologies. Where were we?

[fortheworld]

Likewise, and accepted.

The subject of fate and its relation to this Community.

[croibhristeoir]

What I have for a long time questioned specifically is a matter of 'why'.

I do not understand why, of countless iterations of myself in as many worlds, I specifically was given the opportunity to survive. Was it deemed by some force as 'deserved' in some way? Or is it all a matter of randomized chance beyond comprehension?

Was my 'fate' by default the end which I avoided and another in a different world did not? Or am I simply dwelling on questions with no answer?

[fortheworld]

Most likely the latter, I'm sorry to say. Were it any other iteration, would you not ask the same thing?

[this is a little awkward but-]

Do you see yourself as undeserving?

[croibhristeoir]

Of course I would. But I think it remains something I need to ask all the same.

[Pause.]

Absolutely. Others refuse to believe this second chance was something undeserved, but they are deluding themselves. Everyone I know refuses to see me for the coward that I am.